Let me start by being honest, working on this labyrinth is harder than I expected. Okay, I expected it to be hard (physically and emotionally), but the closer I get to really starting the process, the more I find myself making excuses.
This past week, I finished removing the last of the original weeds (pulling the ones that are resurfacing as well), then yesterday, I put down the paving stones for the center meditation space.
I did my best getting them level and supported. I could have done more, and better. Here’s a truth I am having to revisit with the project that often feels overwhelming; I am doing this for me and me alone. I need to be happy with it. It doesn’t matter if anyone else is pleased, or thinks it is perfect. I am the one that will use and enjoy the labyrinth. This is for me and my pleasure.
This seems so easy, but as a perfectionist, it is often hard for me to remember that I can have “good enough.” I am doing the project. I am succeeding just by taking each step.
And with that, I have also decided that I want a labyrinth I can walk barefoot, so I am hoping to use an Irish/Scottish moss as the primary ground cover.
The best I can say right now, is that I haven’t killed it yet.
Not only does the plan for my success require that I watch for things that I don’t want, I also have to prepare the ground for what I do want. Trying to grow a garden even one that “takes care of itself” requires care and work. It requires time and energy. It sometimes requires testing the soil and adding nutrients.
Real and lasting change only happens when the bed is prepared well and vigilance is practiced. I can’t stop weeding. I can’t stop planting. I have to continue to do the work if I want this garden to succeed.
Engineering Wholeness 