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First, I want to acknowledge that it has been almost a year since I posted, and there is a lot that happened to cause that. I was involved in something larger than myself that took up a lot of my bandwidth, and in the end I spiraled into a depression. For a while, my onlyContinue reading “What binds me to Meeting?”

Over the last several months, I have thought a lot about working on the labyrinth. I have even started doing some basic work on it, but it is hard. 248 bricks, 400 square feet of dirt to attempt to grow moss…Who do I think I am? I will NEVER get this done. So…my sometimes overwhelmedContinue reading “Working with a Community”

Let me start by being honest, working on this labyrinth is harder than I expected. Okay, I expected it to be hard (physically and emotionally), but the closer I get to really starting the process, the more I find myself making excuses. This past week, I finished removing the last of the original weeds (pullingContinue reading “Testing the ground”

Yesterday, I talked about how this was going to be a long and slow process, even of just prepping the bed. 30 minutes of what I considered hard work, and only 9 square feet of flattened soil. I woke up this morning with arms that were a little sore (due to being used in aContinue reading “Seriously!?! There are more than before…”

Last spring, when COVID made being home, the thing to do, I decided I wanted to do some “home” projects. More importantly, I had ideas for my yard. Things I wanted done. I love my house, but the yard has always had potential, it just wasn’t a space I wanted to sit and enjoy. SoContinue reading “Just Getting Started”

I am waiting for the landscaper to get back with me on a quote for my yard. He is going to level space for the walking labyrinth I am going to build and document. However, to do that work, I am going to have to release the idea I carry of perfection. For me, thereContinue reading “Letting Go of “perfection””

Every year it seems is the worst of people’s lives. There is always a ton of stuff that seems to have happened to make it just so horrible. Every year, on NYE I see a lot of posts about good riddance to the previous year. This year has been no different. For some reason, weContinue reading “Hello 2021”

So far this holiday season isn’t going quite as planned. It is the first without my aunt and the first I haven’t eaten with my family. It was sort of a bitter day. I LOVE Christmas. Mostly I love going overboard and demonstrating my love through the act of giving. Giving and Doing are myContinue reading “Letting Go of the holiday expectation”

Tuesday, I called a friend in tears. I just couldn’t do it. I knew that everything was trying to get me to really step into the unknown, but I just wasn’t ready. I was afraid of finding out that I was wrong. Her question back, “So what if you are ?” It’s a good question.Continue reading “So what if you are [wrong]?”

I have started a new post several times, but how does one admit to their biggest fear? Especially when one can’t figure out how to get past it, and doesn’t really want sympathy for it. I am smart and self-aware. I know that what my brain thinks and what is actually true are often twoContinue reading “Struggling with a realization”